I will become a Non-standard man.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

By the way, I decided to write down small bionomics to title "Beginning of personal food self-support for my original lifestyle" from today.
When I am born as a Japanese in Japan and live, I am conscious of being a standardized human being consistently intensely, and it continues being pressed. This is pressure of the silence and therefore it is strong and is hard to fight. I adapt myself to it and I live a life passably calmly quietly till now,
but think whether this is too sad way of life when I live in the rest of life that is the remaining few.
If I live in Japan, and it is permitted that it is "a human being out of standard" a little alone, it thinks only in the side as "the human being of the agriculture". It still comes off the side as "the human being of the agriculture" I provide for oneself, and to eat the food which is a primary article for sale from a standard to some extent somehow, and I may be freed from violent pressure from the outside, negation, an insult, ridicule, abuse, social ostracism.
I believe only some the possibility and want to spend the remaining rest of life. I do not yet become "a human being of the agriculture" and intend to become it, though.
In fact, in Japan, the standardization that the agriculture is thorough, homogenization are already realized. Perhaps it seems whether this is the development degree of the world's best level. A system of the agriculture of the huge equality that the character that I am extremely scrupulous, and is nervous like the Japanese brought about operates it. I know the hopeless actual situation, but therefore want to try an effort to protrude from the frame of the standard human being a little as "a human being of the agriculture".
Of course, I do not intend to do ancestors return. Though I am small, I expect it when I want to spend the rest of life when it is not forced an insubstantial standard without the substance of the colorless transparence by the outside.
For such a reason, I spell daily small experience to become agriculture man as non-standard man from now on first of all.